Trust is a peculiar thing to understand and even more difficult to live out. Trust is difficult because it requires honesty most of us are not used to. In order for me to trust, I must be willing to be honest fully. I must be willing to present the reality of myself. This honesty involves everything and not just honesty about the things that are easy and pleasant. This means my emotions are included. It means when I am angry, hurt or sad, I have to be as honest as I am when I am thrilled. If I am willing and able to be honest with these things, I am able to really trust. If am not able or willing to be honest with Tonya when I am angry or saddened, I do not trust my wife. If I am only fully honest with Tonya when everything is great and thrilling while hiding away my frustration or pain, I do not trust my wife.
How then do we trust an invisible God? How then do I learn to trust a Heavenly Father? I suppose the question to answer that question is, "How honest am I with God?"
When I am frustrated and angry with the circumstances of life, why am I praying without the cursing and fury in order to remain reverent even in my anger? When I am terrified and stressed about a big life decision I need to make, why am I praying pretty "if it be thy will" prayers? When all the world feels against me, and I am down and out, why are my prayers absent? Why are my prayers only passionate and heart-felt when I am thanking God for something?
Why? Because I do not really trust God?
I do not trust God enough to be angry with him or my circumstances. I do not trust God enough to bring myself bedraggled and broken and absent of piety. I do not trust God enough to simply be honest with my worry and stress.
If I am unwilling to just be honest with my pain, anger, worry, and hurt, I do not trust God enough to be thrilled and thankful.
