Frustration

“The LORD nullifies the counsel of the nations;
He frustrates the plans of the peoples.
The counsel of the LORD stands forever,
the plans of His heart from generation to generation.”
Psalm 33:10-11

I often pray for others and every once in a while for myself that all my plans would be frustrated and thwarted if it means I can learn to trust HIS plans even more.

No, it is not an easy prayer to prayer; especially when it is answered.

But it is the best possible prayer; especially when it is answered.

the time I prayed for strength

I found myself
broken on the floor in tears.
I did not know what to do or where to go
who I had become.

So I asked
for strength
for wisdom.

Rarely do I ask for much
I am more content to pursue intimacy
than to ask for things

brokenness makes you ask for things

I started asking
and I waited…

……..

 

……..

 

I listened until
I was frustrated with the silence
Just before I fell asleep, I lay there
with dried up eyes and I heard:

“I am not a genie. I am your God, and I love you. If you want strength, I am not just going to GIVE you strength. It will start to get really difficult now. Will you be strong in those times or not. I am not a genie; I am your God who loves you.”